There is this idea that there is a difference between self and other. Wherein the human experience somehow transcends all other forms of being and non-being. But if I were to look for this separate self, where would it be and what would it look like? In other words, it's challenging to conceive two processes as being one, but through my research and this body of work, in particular, I've learned that I don't need the outcome to make sense per se, I only require the process or the act to make sense.
I've come to understand and make peace with the fact that this thing we call being, in-and-of-itself, is unknowable as a separate outcome. And much like the saying goes for a fish that doesn't know it's in the water, a human will never see the lens with which the world appears to them. There is inherently a sensation of centrality that goes along with the feeling of being born into a strange world, as opposed to the sense of being born out of a world that feels connected in-and- of-itself. This body of work and most of my graduate studies have taught me how to merge complex and, at times, unrelatable philosophical questions with everyday life. For the longest time, I was getting hung up with the semantics of someone else's experience outcome, and I lost touch with the purpose of my process.
These video-performances explore hybrid meditations that exercise being present in all forms of being, and not allowing one defining thing to overwhelm or overtake any other experience. It is here where I've taken traditional transformative objects (the treadmill & meditation bench) and myself out of their usual context. And for me, being taken out of one's idea or outcome of themselves is where the actual growth and enlightenment exists. I think it's problematic when we start to self-identify as symbols or objects and mistake that feeling of social status as being the end-all-be-all. That type of thinking tends to isolate someone into patterns of opposition.
Furthermore, as I see it around me, the world feels as though those patterns of behavior could benefit from a little deeper self-exploration and a bit more absurdity. The many issues that occur in one's life can be overwhelming. Still, I've learned through practicing staying present throughout space and time, a form of circumambulation will ultimately filter out the essence of any conflict, be it internally or externally because they are, in happening, the same.